JessicaRigby

A few more thoughts:

• The people who live above us like to play their shitty rap and r&b music incredibly loud while they fuck like crazy.  My roommates came home earlier and Betty got so mad at them that she pounded on the ceiling with a broomstick.  They turned it down but stomped really loud back at us and went right back to fucking without the music. Which is even worse because no one wants to hear that all the time?  I wonder if they’ll keep it down or if this will play out to be more drama. (and the plot thickens…!)
• Matt Damon is one of my all time favorite pretty faces.  I’ve read all but like 3 of John Grisham’s novels.  Right now “The Rainmaker” is on USA and I’m so happy!  He’s so young and sexy looking in it and it’s also adorable as hell to watch him and Claire Danes (another fave) do their thing.  If you haven’t seen Sarah Silverman’s video I’m Fucking Matt Damon then you should check it out now. 
• Also, I was wondering earlier… what the hell is it about smoking a cigarette that makes boys want to kiss me?  I was making a list in my head of the last 5 boys I’ve kissed and I realized that cigarettes had something to do with at least 3 of them.  Very weird.  Too bad it’s such a bad habit!  Pretty yucky when you think about it.
• I really enjoy taking pictures.  It’s nice to be able to look back at certain moments.  Today I realized I had a whole bunch of pictures on my camera card that I’d forgotten all about and as we flipped through them it was fun to laugh at the little moments we’d captured but forgotten about since. 
• Ever since I was a little girl, I’ve wanted a library in my house when I grow up.  I spent like $200 at Barnes & Noble over Christmas Break and I’m slowly working my way through my purchases.  I think after I finish “No Country For Old Men” I’ll read some Dickens again.  It’s been a little while since I’ve read good ol’ Chaz and I miss him! 

I’m doped up on “skittles” right now. Betty talked me into it. It took forever to kick in, but now, every time I look away from my computer screen…. WHOLE LEE SHIT! It reminds me of one morning a long long time ago when Taylor and I were sitting in her car and I was so high that I had to buckle my seat belt for fear I would “soar up way too high.” I feel like I weigh two pounds. It’s incredible. Everything feels so nice! I can feel my body touching things-my bed, my toes and my legs, the floor, the wall… but i just sort of…. float.

I dunno. At first I didn’t think it was working. But I just called Sebastian and told him what I was doing and let’s face it… a sober me would NOT do that! I’m not sure how I feel about this. Not at all. You’ll have to ask me in the morning. Betty says its the greatest feeling in the world but from what I’ve experienced thus far in the trip…. she needs to try more feelings!

I think it’s important for people to try things, though. I’ve been doing “drugs” for five years now… it’s about time I broaden my horizons. Just don’t give me any of that gateway drug crap. I dont believe in gateway drugs. I’m not trippin this shit because i got bored with Mary, or even because i want a better high. The way I see it, the two have absolutely nothing to do with each other, aside from the fact that they both make me kinda floaty and happy. The reality is… i’m trippin skittles because someone told me it was fun and i thought it sounded fun too, so i tried it. I’m still not gonna go shoot smack, or become a crackhead, or anything else that’s stupid. I probably won’t even do this shit again.

Well…. maybe.